"Peace is always beautiful."

for the eyes

"It is okay to want your own happiness. It’s okay to care about yourself the most. You are not obligated to sit there and smile and swallow every bit of shit everyone heaps on you. You are more than furniture, you’re more than window dressing, you’re not their shiny toy. You’re human, and you have the right to say “That was shitty of you”. You have a right to protest your own mistreatment and set boundaries for respectful interactions. The rest of the world doesn’t realize you have this right, and they will act offended and appalled when you exercise it, but it is yours."

Sometimes I forget how selfish I can be. Even though I was barely able to survive this semester, it doesn’t justify the fact that I neglected to love on the people who truly matter, who were also barely surviving. I’m back at home now, and the problems that I had in Austin seem so far removed from me, as if I’m living two completely different stories. I was blinded by the problems of one relationship that I couldn’t see what was happening here at home. I told my brother that I felt like a burden and that I seriously thought about dropping architecture at UT in order to be at home, to make things right. He thought that plan was absurd, which it was, but I feel like I shouldn’t be able to have this life in Austin when people here are still hurting. Why am I so inept when it comes to human interaction and relationships.